perasaan saya tika ni!

ya ALLAH hari jumaat datang lagi.

viva saya telah tamat, oh ye perjalanan viva saya sangat getir, tapi saya yakin ALLAH tidak akan menguji hambaNya kalau kita tak mampu! insyaALLAH

air mata banyak mengalir pada saat dan ketika viva nak buat, saya kira rezeki masing2 bila dapat examiner and advisor yang tidak berapa pakar dalam research. tapi berbeza ngan saya.

examiner saya expert dalam research!! bertitle kan :PROFESSOR DOKTOR.......(nama kene rahsiakan la kan) advisor saya.. after few months baru saya tau tittle die :  DOKTOR!!!!

both of them super duper expert. last minute preparation is always turn you down. and it happens to me.

tak kan baru sekali ALLAH datang kan ujian teros kita nak membelakang kan PENCIPTA yang mengasihani hamba die lebih 70 kali dari kasih seorang ibu!

aghh saya tak ske wat entry emo2. lebih2 lagi di pagi jumaat

mama and ayah saya jauh: Mr. i pon jauh!!!

siapa yang paling dekat untuk rujukan ?? ALLAH swt!

ya ALLAH tidak aku mahu menjadi hamba yang berputus harapan. saat dan hari itu. saya hendak belajar untuk redho!

advice dr Mr.i sgt2 membuat kan saya berasa tenang!!

awok kalau bercakap nampak cm ting tong!! tapi bile bg nasihat! subhanallah!!
saya jatuh cinta ngan awak ker?? hahahah

it's getting hot!!

heay!! sume nye HOT. obiyes tak leh dengar hot fm. ade yang tebako karang!!


yeah . and of cos still dengan ceghitera VIVA. i love you yarrr~

tau x saye sgt excited bile saya mampu collect sume data dgn jaya even thou dah di kire last minute.
tapi saya tak expect yang result daripada regression yang saya buat akan jadi tersangat owsem!!


tetibe rase cam pandai sangat!!!!



Mr.i msg!! just on time : pale otak tgk ting tong!!! so penceritean hati ke hati!! uwek ngegeh kamek tok!

then msg ayah: sob sob sob... dh start nak berenang2 itik orang kate

then msg mama: okayy dah nampak ikan berenang dalam mata and finally jadi air terjun!!!

saya doa. biarlah saya susah sekarang!! Ya ALLAH ko bg la aku dapat 4 flat!!! ( tetibe nak dapat 4 rata )

ya ALLAH kau tahu isi hati ini, bagi lah yang terbaik untuk aku, keluarga ku,dan agamaku!!!


wish me luck ya.
selagi mgu depan x abis. ceritera hanya bekisar viva.

muntah pizza cepat!!

darah manis (versi vampire)

saya beno nye tak caye sgt bab darah manis, orang bertunang ni darah manis. so last week, i dgn my dayangs pegi PD. had fun since dh abis practical, sgt heaven!

and suddenly got msg from my parents, BOTH ok, ayah kate take care. sbb awk tuh darah manis
mama said: jgn seronok sgt, and ingat ALLAH .. awk tu darah manis

and saya tak sangka mama and ayah akan mention darah manis few times jugak la. sebab i think both of them, i mean the way they think quite modern. so dont expect that they gonna say about darah2 manis ni!!


Mr.i sokmo ckp. awak percaya tak skrg ni awak tunang saya!! hahah sumpah cam tak caya yang saya nak kawen ngan awk tak lame lagih!!!. hahahah

manis sgt ke darah tuh.. klu muke saya manis ble terima gak.!! oh yg itu no doubt!! (HAAHAHA sumpah lawak)

save the date!

nop nop nop. its no what are you thinking guys. its not the date am getting married. but!!!

25/06/2012
this is the VIVA date.
this coming monday!

oh am i so excited till i cant close my eyes!
oh am i so eager to know the result ?

oh korang tolong2 doa kan saya.

am sttill at collecting data stage where i supposely already and conclusion at this time.


bismillahirahman nirahim. hahahah takot beb

ape kate jiwa

hey tak sangka sangat2 yang life can be so complicated bile bab kawen jadi topik HOTTTTT!!!!!


saya nak kawen tapi all messed up here! look at my head! inside it! the brain didn't works at all!

 orang lain kawen. happy gegile. orang lain nak kawen banyak duit!! orang lain nak kawen prepare macam! ko hape ado???

 happy?? skng x happy sebab Mr.i period!!! (pelik tetapi benar)

 duit?? i still student, used ptptn to cater my expenses so stop day dreaming!! malam pon x yah

 prepare!?? hahahhahah.. nak gelak mcm orang gilo ble tak..

oh kemon.. ape sal nih!! ni kan hari bahagia, mesti nak sume nampak comel and cool and meriah tip top!!! .. x mewah tapi berkat..

awok2 di luar sane. doakan saya

 lame nye tak blog walking!!nak g makan angin kejap!!

where is the love

missing you so much?? this much or how much ! don't ask me how much. i cant measure it. but pretty sure your heart knows well.

i like it this way. we are so far yet so close. how close? again don't ask

i like when you are far and yet you can still remember me even you are busy with your work and life

i love when you are so busy and you couldn't call me and even text me a message

i like when you tell me that you are missing me so much after few days we didn't had a chance to contact each other

i love the way you describe your love and i will act like i am so dumb to know what it is

i like to act blur and dumb when you start to talk about love heart family and kids

i love when you are sulk and asking me to persuade you like a baby even thou i don't know how to do it, i try to

i like it when you sing me a song and asking you to stop immediately



you know what. i don't know how to show you what is love could be.
you know what. i just don't have the attitude to show my love publicly
you know what. i don't know how to say that word like " i love you or i miss you"


i just don't know how to do it.

but trust me!! Allah knows me better.

here inside my heart. always thinking of you!

final week!

bismillahhirahmannirahim..

alhamdullillah.. last week gonna be our last week together, 3  months has past just like that, cant believe that time flies this fast. working here as a trainee, at first this is not what i imagine working life could be, but this past 3 months taught me a lot.

i dont want to mention the company name, let it be unknown for a while. few weeks ago there is a crisis between manager and permanent staff, but if you asking my opinion. i would say this is what will happen no matter where you go, manager would not satisfied with you and you too always talking back!! this situation is normal. but its not healthy obviously!!

but seriously i learn a lot, meeting new friends, new environment, new things!!! i cant be expert but at least i know something new!!

really need a holiday with friends

jom broga!!!!

hati dah ok

orang pompuan ni mcam2 kan. kejap ok kejap x ok.
blom lagi time peot. haihh tak tau la nak habaq lagu  mane,

btw. hati ai pon dah okay skang. even bju x ok. ai tetap nak kate ok. hati tegar la kau terime segala nya

telah kah kau lupe ,, nikmat ya tuhan beri semule. tabah. syukor. kang gemok balik padan muke. istifar sayang!!!

oh td mr ehem kol. even kejap. as usual. skang klu x dpt kontek die , saya dah paham . yang die dok pendalam, rural area. abviously x dekr coverage. so just leave him a msg, bile msg msk, nnt die bg tau la. and hr nih die suwit sgt

die p satu tmpt and ckp tmpt tuh tersgt cantik. (sungai btw) secantik ai. mmg nak gelakk ar. even its not a big deal pon. but felt proud somehow.

awok! plz jgn buat saya jatuh cinta!!


and our conversation tonight is kinda serious and 18 thn ketas sket le. ntah np mr ehem tetibe jerk kua kan mende tuh. bese censored habis


 i love you like a love song baby


ayah tq. even thou ayah agree with others opinion. you keep on compliment me. yeah we are so same in all aspect. love you so much!!

baju tunang done!! but

hep hep hep. im so excited to look at my baju tunang. so excited. that i smiled the whole day.

called my sister. she puji so much about the dress. she said so cantik and the color so nice. so when i back from work. straight went to her house. and look at the baju. not bad


pastuh balik. i felt something that baju tuh mcm kecik cket. but i tried to ignore it.and keep on telling my self everything gonna be okay.

pastu change and. sucks!!! baju tuh mmg cantik. but bile i pakai.

oh may god. i cant feel u baju. so bad.
 i looked totally gemoksss yang melampau. kemon. i know my weight is increasing but come on. this not what i want/. spoil my day.

i didnt do my thesis. so stress so what should i do.

baju tunang 

from the start . my preparation went so wrong. start from picking the color. i want dark pink. and neyna said that the color looks too bright and end up took that she likes the most. the main point here who's going to engage here???


hantaran


hantaran plak. too obvious i love fresh flowers. mama said just used carnation. and neyna same as mama. but the porblem is whos' engage here?/ and here it goes. end up with carnation


tray hantaran


i dont want sthe tray look so messy. and i dont like reben so much. so i tries to lessen it up. but mama, kak ila and NEYNA again is really into reben and renda, so stress guys. come on.. again who's engage here??/
and obvious end up with reben here and there.

veil


saya nak veil tapi mama kate tak payah. tau x kosong sangat.nake beli jugak. klu x kasik aku bako jerk sume nih... hahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


saya sangat tension


damn!!

exactly 14 days to go

what should we do, what should we say.

exactly 14 days to. all preparations have been done, all the hantarans  already be arrange, but the groom to be is missing


awak, even thou i know that you dont know about the existence of this blog, but it doesnt matter.
the problem now is, where are you. where are you exactly? what are you doing out there.
should i worry? should i care?

why are you doing this? what exactly happen to you. last three days you are act like always you did. but after the last msg you are missing!! hah takot nye la saye.


plz urgently contact me darl.

another 2 weeks to go

ya Rahman, i cant believe my eyes, i cant believe my heart, in another 2 weeks and 3 days to go. half is your Mr.Ehem.

kadang2 kesian dgn Mr.Ehem. kerja terlalu kuat demi mase depan kate nye. lately he hardly texting me, but he keep on calling me, sometimes ever night, he dont want me to call him,

kenape tetibe cam tuh. nape tetibe caring sgt. nape tetibe .. tetibe tetibe.. bla bla bla.


saya nak tuko profession. ndak sik kerja bank , mau jadi cikgu. bagus ndak? pantas ndak?? teringin nak buat KPLI, then mesti la kene long distance marriage kan. for sure laaa harus.. nope.. WAJIB...

and rase2 nye ape jawapan Mr Ehem.. ya ya ya ya he said NO to LDM. dh kawen kene dudoh ngan die. kene kepit kat bwh ketiak die.. eii geli wok!!


lg 2 mgu nak tunang. x derk paper yang siap.!! takot nye...

hulurkan tangan please??!!

assalamualaikum. salam hari khamis. ade yang berpuasa hari ni. saya tidak, kenape?? pose qadha saya dah abisss,. yihaaaa :) oh happy day!!!

ok topic mmg x leh bla kan.

saya perlukan khidmat nasihat beno nye. kepada sesiapa yang berkenaan, tiada orang specific, just kalau korang ade advice. pls do help me, i need one.

" itu kate2 seorang kawan kepada saya."

ape masalah die?

she is obiviously bride to be (B2B) kadang2 die semangat nak kawen, kadg2 die lemah bile cite psal kawen,.,skang nak ckp ngan future husband die pon cm xderk perasaan sgt. so ape yang perlu die buat.kadang2 " saya cemburu kalau dpt tahu adik beradik dapat pasangan yang lebih baik dari saya"

tapi saya nak adik2 dapat yang terbaik, tapi masalah nye saya cemburu bile mereka lebih!! jadi bagaimana dong???

bad news is always a good news

trust me buddy, there's no such a bad news, its actually a pre-good news. ALLAH just want us be thankful, shows our effort into it and always begging like a beggar to HIM, then HE without hesitates will granted all your wishes, the thing to be considered is time ONLY..

as we all know, to book hall at putrajaya is not as easy as we thought, ayah went to putrajaya 2 days ago to book hall for my wed, but unfortunately all is full until early of Jan, probably until June, surprisingly after discussed with my lil bro, he suggest that we have our ceremony at his place. For the 1st time he giving out a very convincing idea, thank you.


and now, finally , i got mine!! alhmdullilah ya ALLAH.

place will not be shared until i distribute the card

praise to ALLAH, and dear friends , please doa for me. thank you love you.


ehem where are you.?? i couldn't contact you at all, hearing that tsunami is attacked back made me scared,, are you okay out there?

wow new layout

hohhoh.. horlicks. walau hati x berkenan bebeno ngan layout ni. but at least then nothing kan. i nak something vintage . look old school yet elegant, manusia mmg macam2. nak sesempurna bagai. bajet ko ado sume la plak kan.

 hahah so bape hari lagi nak tunang?? x yah kire. tgk jerk kat blog. daisy path dh tolong kire kan. woot woot. happy nyer?? ( ye ke.?? saya x rase ape2 pon) just tulis happy bagi nampak semangat. padahall~~~~

azie tanya.. eh ko nih nak ke x nak kawen nih?? mcm2 plak kan. sape tak nak kawen. tapi sejak akhir2 ni saye cpt taching. ape pon tabley.

persiapan majlis tunang. x yah cite la. cam x der semengat jerk . palaing pntg bunga hiasan dah settle. totally hasil tangan mama, saya??? hell no. x derk talent. am not creative at all.
mgkn siang nnt baru nak update poyo2 pasl brg2 tunang ke or ape2 ntah lagi. ahh benci nye.. nape x dekr perasaan nih

today my life begin

assalamualaikum.. salam manis salam sayang

 finally nak sebot gak macam orang2 lain sebot. saya pon bride to be gak. ( ade bunyi riak) nauzubillah... awok jgn mcm2 ,, banyak mende leh jd dlm sepanjang tempoh nak ke hari kawen ni..

saya cume nak ceghita, saya takde pon PMS. tapi otak saya sedikit mereng. xsangka ehem2 pon mereng jugak rupenye. kate nye x tau nape tetibe hati tak tenang. but u guys know what, i dont like the way he texted me, soklan cam tergantung. sometimes i wondered what actually that he trying to say???

oh yeah. awok sebenor nye ngah count down. no matter what i still cant figure out what actually happens here and there. kenape ngan hati saye nih.??? how many days left erk?? tapi still tak tetap pendirian. saya dah kenape. pelik nye.

nak tnya awok2 yang nak kawen macam saye jugak ker..? tetibe rase tak nak kawen??

oh ye. saye nak buat pembaharuan kat blog ni. almaklum status dh nak tuko awl bln depan. so kene la buat byk perubahan hahahahha.. 

andai die yang terbaik ya ALLAH

ya ALLAH andai benar aku wanita tercipta dari tulang rusuk nya. maka permudahkan perhubungan kami kepada arah yang halal di mata agama Mu ya ALLAH.


ya ALLAH tak mungkin aku minta seorang putera raja
sedang aku tahu aku hanya seorang hamba

ya ALLAH tak mungkin aku minta yang datang seorang tampan
sedang aku jelik segala-galanya

ya ALLAH tidak mungkin aku mohon seorang maksum
sedang aku seorang pendosa

ya ALLAH tidak mungkin aku tagih seorang yang sempurna
sedang aku penuh dengan cacat dan cela

ya ALLAH yang aku mohon datang kan seorang lelaki yang ada agama yang sempurna, yang membawa aku ke syuga Mu, yang mengingatkan aku pada Mu, yang membuahkan aku rindu pada Rasulku, yang membuatkan aku taat kedua ibubapa ku, dan dengan doanya menjadi kan aku ibu pada anak-anak yang berkhidmat untuk Mu ya Rab

too bz

assalamualaiukum ...

salam manis. salam sayang salam rindu and salam mengantuk. its 3.18 am in the morning and my eyes wide open.

life is too bz when i said YES to him. thank you ALLAH for this happiness, never thought that i will go thru all this things you know. i never expected it will turn out this well. i never expected that he is the one. i never expected that in a month he will be my fiancée



he said that i am 30% hes' . another next step probably in may,  when we done with our engagement half is hes'.

scared?? obviously i am. thinking of him sometimes could turn gloomy face to happiest face ever. it changes in a min. hopefully it last till the end. insyaALLAH.


so i am the bride to be. happy? alhamdullillah. i think now i can accept him and his family.


preparation??

baju dah beli. tempah jerk belom.
hantaran x sentuh ape2
pelamin dh tempah tp tiba2 nak ubah pikiran tak nak yang tu plak.


stop psl tunang.

thesis tak gerak langsung. so nak jmpe masterji esok. and study gegile. msti siap before monday morning.. ble plak kan.???


internship plak.

peh rase nak pengsan keje... siyessss

the unhappy bride to be

sape jerk yang tak seronok kalau cakap bab kawen kan?? lain la kalau kawen paksa . obvious la skng ngah nanges cam kasim selamat..tapi sume yang nak kawen dengan pilihan sendiri mesti happy.

saya pon tak paham kenapa saya perlu berperasaan cam ni. sebab aku yang moody, abis satu family kene pikir pasal aku.saya dah nekad. saya nak happy.

please my dear  brain, we are encourage to think beyond the box, but in positive way, stop pretending like you are tough and strong. i believe even when you are crying , you are not weak but fitrah la. ALLAH ciptakan air mata dengan sebutan tangisan. jadi menangis la

kata mama - kawen dengan orang yang mencintai kita lebih, sayang kita lebih insyaAllah die akan hargai kita

mana mungkin kau harap datang seorang lelaki sempurna sedang kau punya banyak cacat cela

p/s : saya cume nak berpesan.. buat yang belom kawen la. jgn la nak benci sesape awal2. nanti jadi laki/isteri korang .. haa buat malu jerk. naye la kene bahan sepanjang hidop.

pss: dulo saya belagak sgt, tgk ape skang tuhan dah balasss hahahahah 

oh mama saya mahu kawen,kawen dengan siapa? dengan siapa saja

tolong ceria hati!! nak kawen x???

andai cinta ku datangi

sebagai manusia kita punyaaa banyak sangat angan2, tapi apakah itu yang terbaik. lebih2 lagi kalau becerita ttg bakal pasangan sehidup semati. haishhh topik best and sentiasa hot manjang.. asall erk??? sume orang pon gelenya nok nikoh gamok nye.

seorang lelaki datang pada kamu, terima kamu seadanya yang banyak cacat cela, tidak boleh kah kamu lihat pada satu kesempornaan yang ada pada nya walau sejuta keburukan jelas terpalit pada dia???

jawapan saya : payah !!

namun itu yang tersembunyi / itu yang zahir itu yang hakikat /. tapi apakan daya. saya sudah setuju pada lamaran itu.

yuckss ayat geli.

malas nak sambung

fuh fuh fuh

assalamualaikum warah matullahiwabarakatuh.

pehh panjang bagi salam, moga yang menjawab juga panjang, jadi pahalaaa kita semua pon panjang2 hendaknya ye :) lame dah tak buka tirai blog,maklom la. sejak hati nih frust dulo, teros tak mahu update blog. kira nya hati terluka tangan turut sama terasa.

alhamdullillah, dengan izin Pencipta dapat lagi berjumpa dengan tahun baru,
alhamdullillah, buat masa ni manis2 belaka di pembukaan tahun baru ni yerk 2012.

last few days, which is exactly on 22/2/2012 uitm's result was out, and most of them happy with their result. me obviously included. I never expect that it could turn out so well. I just want to get dean list, but ALLAH gives me more than average.

alhamdullillah.

to be continued